the beginning of the end.

This blog started nearly 15 months ago.
One might ask, "How is that possible seeing as your first blog was written 3 hours ago?" Although people don't frequently speak like that, the point of the mater is yes. Yes, I have demonstrated one of my worst vices already: procrastination. (Another is spelling; it's sad how often I have already used that tool.)

It was January 2012, when inspiration, in the form of a new year's resolution, struck to start a blog. After all, the world was due to end in December, and in light of the coming Zombie Apocalypse, I thought the world wide web must know what was going on in this little brain of mine. Despite the world's desperate need for my oval pearls, procrastination won the battle over blogging.

I don't have time. I have to do my taxes. But the Bachelor is on. I haven't slept in 20 hours.  

blah blah blah.

And while I wasted time procrastinating, other questions, doubts and fears were given time to root, grow and flourish. 

What is this Blog going to be about? What if it's not "hip" enough? What if I get bored and this becomes just one more thing in life I don't accomplish? Do I post this on my Facebook wall and worry that friends won't actually read it but pity-post me instead?

After 12 months of asking these questions, I hope that I have come to a place where I just don't care. My procrastination is replaced by apathy. Apathy, when well placed, may not be a negative thing. Today, I hope to place my apathy in other people's opinions. For my sake, and the sake of my blog, I will write what I want. I hope to do myself justice. I hope to allow myself to be creative with my words and stories. I hope to find freedom and not be trapped in the margins of this page or the margins of what is socially popular. I hope to make you laugh, cry, think and experience life not through rose-colored glasses, well placed metaphors, and meaningful essays, but through typos, socially awkward situations and incoherent ramblings of a 20-something, pseudo-feminist, beer snob. 

This is not an easy task, but it is a challenge. It is a resolution, and one worth holding onto. *now steps down from soap box*


While all the above is certainly true, much of my re-ignition to start blogging came from Mindy Kaling's Book, Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me (And Other Concerns). She's awesome and I love her stories. She reminded me that hey, I's gots stories too! Ima gunna perfect 'em and share 'em. I hope you'll come back and read from time to time. For now, I've got other pressing matters to attend to. The walking dead is about to start and I have to watch my husband, Darryl, save us all from zombies.